a little bit of backround

I know that some of you who may have read my other blog posts may think I havent been a Christian for very long. One reason someone could have come to that conclusion is that I have written about learning stuff in my faith that some of you may have learned a long time ago.

To clear that up, I became a Christian when I was 5 years old. You would think that after twenty eight years of being a Christian, I would be way past the issues of faith and understanding and learning that I am at right now. But in the twenty eight years of being a Christian I have stumbled, and faltered, and had setbacks of faith, especially when I moved away to college. As most Christians moved away to school, they may have found a local church close to campus, and participated in Christian activities, within the school or outside of the school. Thats not what I did. When living back home, I was totally into church and bible study, community service, youth groups, and high school Christian groups. So when I moved out on my own at college, I sort of let go, of God's hand and after looking back, I see that is the time where he carried me, when there was only one set of footprints in the sand. Which has happened more than once in my life but I digress.... I began to question God, I even started to doubt, I prayed for signs that he was there and at the time, I never did see God reveal himself to me. But after college I look back and I can see all those times that God showed himself to me, I just didnt see it at the time. I have even had setbacks in my relationship with God since then, but I am learning and growing in faith. And what I may say may indicate ignorance of Christ is not ignorance, but it is immaturity. I have studied the Bible and much protestant theology. Although I have always had some of my own original theological views. I am still a little immature, and although I have had much adversity in my life, I feel as though my immaturity in my faith and walk with Jesus could be because I walked away from God (so i thought) but my doubt only led me to find out that my faith was strengthened when It was time. Now I have a lot of living to do, and with living comes learning. And by learning you grow in relationship with Christ. so I guess I would say to you who are young in your Christian Walk, if you come to a point of doubt, its okay to question because you may learn. but please dont walk away from God because it will really set you back in your maturing with Christ. when you go away to college or move to a new town, find a church (the first one may not be the right one) but find a church, and Christian groups and activities. you dont want a set back in your life with God.